Today, I woke up to find that I made myself breakfast. 2 soft boiled eggs accompanied with white bread and a cup of tea. I was happy yet I was filled with that sense of achievement.
I took my dad’s car and drove it to work. Knowing that my beloved yellow one went through the knife to be better, I had to take my dad’s car. Filled with power, but yet it’s a different feel to what it used to be like with the other. Clutch was easy on me, gear changing couldn’t be much easier, but driving a bigger car isn’t my style.
Whereas in my beloved yellow, I’m contended that I have that ample space in the back of my car, ample space to put my CDs and sunglasses. I’m happy that my beloved yellow didn’t give me much problems, and I’m also glad that my driving habits have improved to keep the car going as far with the best amount of petrol consumption achieved.
Then bad news went to worse when my brake fluid’s leaking, my dry shaft is wearing out, my brake is gone etc. Sigh. If only I could be a better person to drive that car. Felt so worthless at one point. Then again, I’m determine to be a better driver. Of course, I don’t want to let my beloved yellow one die on me.
I have countless times that I felt that the sentimental value is building up on this car, and I couldn’t help but why the sense of urgency to know about it’s condition is more than just what it’s suppose to be. Everyone might think – yea, it’s just car, get over it. – But I will ask one question: “What if you have your own car and all these happens to it?” It’s like your wife or your child getting struck with pneumonia, or fever, or if worse, any terminal illness. Won’t you feel even worried about it?
I’m willing to do anything for that car. Ok, not to the point that I lose my job and go crazy just because of a car, but at least make these 2 years a worthwhile for me to spend time with my car. This is the problem in Singapore, you buy a car, with a 10 year COE, which means you are liable to use your car for 10 years. It’s like having someone for 10 years and losing it to god’s will. What can I do about it? In fact, having a car in Singapore is a liability, and after putting so much to maintain your car for 10 years, only to see it go, it’s a sad thing for sure.
All I wanted was to make this car my worthwhile transport. My reliable mode of movement. Isn’t something simple that hard to ask for?
Anyways, the morale of the story is – Don’t start cherishing something/someone when it’s gone.
Take time to think who has been the best to you, be it your family, your friends, etc. And start loving them more than ever. Because you will never know when they part away from you.
*gone*