Not like I’m trying to be Tweety bird. But then, it really feels kinda sucky to be 23. Yea, birthday here, birthday there. From my past 21 years of experience, my birthday is always the same. Any excitements? Don’t think so. Anything to highlight? Like all is the same, duh.
So am I gonna expect a surprise party or something else? I guess not. I don’t think my family or friends are even free to do such stuff anyway. LOL. And yes, I’m approaching an age where I haven’t even get into a university yet. And people like at the age or 21 are already graduating from there. Why I’m not in? Thanks to NS. Something that delayed and slowed down 2 years of my life. So am I to envy those JC students going into universities? I guess so. Don’t ask me why I didn’t go JC. It’s the same disliking – Army and JC = Uniform = what the heck. Can’t I just wear my home clothes to school? I guess the polytechnic route is the best and closest possibility to fulfill that dream. Haha.
Being hopeful doesn’t give me much of an assist in life, but I really wish that I could be like any family, have a good life, give my family a good life etc. But the key to all that is to work and earn that amount of cold hard cash. Yet again, my age makes me feel very limited. Something that I can’t use to surpass greater heights because I’m feeling so damn low now. And the other worrying thing is that I wonder how am I gonna give a good life to my family when my relationship with her is always a blur in the horizon. And given the position I’m in, it’s hard to see how I’m gonna survive for the next few years. And having an IPhone doesn’t make me any richer.
Sigh. How I wish the world is kinder to me.
Pic of the Day: Life’s like a gamble. Win it or Lose it. =(
