Goals. Achievements. Sacrifice.

06 Dec 2010 Leave a Comment

Someone once told me that in order to achieve your goals, greater sacrifice is needed.

I couldn’t agree more. The immense pressure that is building on me as days go by is far more than before, and given the fact that life is getting more boring shows that I’m fated to do other stuff. And being the eldest in almost every level and generation in the family, I guess that’s what scaring myself all the time. I have to achieve what I can’t, and I have to give what I can but at the expense of my achievement. SUPER DIFFICULT CAN.

But what to do. Suffering in silence is probably the best thing I can do. It’s my forte. It’s my style. But I have a whole lot of intentions and dreams. But what I foresee now is that I want to achieve one thing. Because I intend to shift out. Yes, shift out. Live on my own. Get my own space, get my own flat, get my own privacy. How to stay positive when I don’t get the respect? I don’t know if anyone still treats me like their own these days already.

I have more than just dreams to attain. And I want to do it all and share it with the people I cherish. Sadly the ones that I cherish don’t see the same way as I do. So I need not explain any further. Because I don’t know what I should do anymore. Dying is not the answer. Sucking my thumb isn’t the way either. What should I even do? Sigh.

Life is all but happiness.