Existent.
16 Jan 2011 Leave a Comment
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Yes, I’m still around. Not that I have disappeared. Just not as active as usual.
I can’t believe I used to make it a point to blog everyday, and now that priorities have piled up, I guess being online is not my thing anymore, since no one will look for me online anyways. Probably I will only need like 30 minutes of checking the normal stuff everyday and I’m off to my own world.
I think people can’t really live without Facebook or Twitter these days. Perhaps it’s quite addictive. But I think there’s something more to life than just social networking websites no?
Then again, people like me without any plans will probably be stuck at home trying to figure out what to do on the internet, so we will probably end up patronising Facebook or Twitter.
Yes, plan-less people like me. =)
Don’t worry, not that I’m gone, I’m just keeping quiet that’s all.
Taiwan (29th Oct 2010 – 5th Nov 2010)
14 Dec 2010 Leave a Comment
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The long awaited post is here. After so much editing, I think I deserve to blog one of the longest post in my entire life.
Anyways, here’s my whole Taiwan trip. Enjoy.
Arrived at Changi Airport Terminal 1 at about 4:45am. Headed for breakfast alone at BK as the rest have not arrived. But then again, was made to rush and wait eventually when Zhencong was late. But still, we manage to board our plane safely.
Landed in Taoyuan International Airport at around 11:45am in Taiwan. The first look at the airport – not so convincingly an international airport that I would expect, but nonetheless, it still deserves to be recognised and discovered. But that is also not ruining my image of Taiwan. As I sat in the backseat in the cabby that was arranged to ferry us, I travel past the busy expressways of Taipei, with torn and tattered buildings that made Taiwan look like a city of yesteryears. And I always had that impression that Taiwan is still well-developed. But sadly it isn’t. That won’t spoil my image of Taiwan still, because ultimately, Japan also looks like that, just that they have cleaner air with nicer weather, though Taiwan’s raining and raining that whole period.
When we arrived at our accommodation area, I’m quite impressed at the type of room that I was given to live in. Though small, with 3 double-decked beds, 6 of us manage a cosier living style with everything everywhere in the room. With only 1 living room, there’s time for catchup sessions including Monopoly Deals before bath. A computer, with wireless, and also cable tv, it is priced at only SGD$125 for only 7 nights. Probably the best deal in the world. The hostel, TaiwanMex, is located about 5 to 10 minutes walk from the Taipei Main Train Station, which consist of their MRT as well as their Train Service.
The hostel is located at 66, ChangAn West St, at exit R4 of the underground shopping mall linking from Taipei Main Train Station to Zhongshan Station. Coming out from the entrance of the hostel on the right is Legend Bubble tea store, with a Tauhuay Drink eatery opposite the hostel. Good enough for breakfast, as I have ate there on the 3rd day. Good stuff.
We didn’t wait, so we moved off to sit the trains first. So we bought this concession card at $500NT ($400NT in train ride amounts, $100NT refundable after using up all the amount inside the card) and travelled throughout our whole Taiwan trip in Taipei. Nice eh. It’s like their EZLink Concession somehow. But it’s worth it. We went to shopping malls, Daiso, ate Mos Burger for lunch, which taste really good compared to Singapore. And we already contemplated at the purchase of a Porter pouch, but left it to the last day because it’s only the 1st day. LOL.
So after that we went to Sogo at Zhongshan Dunhua and Zhongshan Fuxing to have a look as well. They have 3 Sogos sanwiched between that area, and it’s not as small as you think it is. But it has a lot to offer. Brands like Nike and Adidas are presently there, G-shock, Puma, Porter International etc are all there too. It’s like our Takashimaya, less exquisite, because they are not offering big brand names like Chanel or at least Agnes B. After walking around, we decided to settle for Ding Tai Fung, since it’s around their area. Amazing thing is – the food is so much cheaper there than Singapore. We paid SGD$13 each to eat a portion that we usually eat individually at Singapore for about SGD$30 per pax. And the waitress are hell prettier than Singapore ones here. Totally amazing.
After that sumptuously cheap meal, we were wondering where should we go next. Then out of the blue, our random suggestion was to head to Shida Night Market since it was just around the corner. The next thing we knew, we were on the way there in the cab. Once there, it’s hell crowded but fantastically, it has so much to offer. Cheap clothes, cheap shoes, cheap food. What else can I say? There’s a MRT station along the green line, nearer than Zhongshan Fuxing. Take that one there. More accessible and faster.
Yup, and before you know it, we were heading back to the hostel to leave our stuff and get ready for clubbing at Luxy. The club, in all, is a great club with nice ambience and good people, just lacking one thing – atmosphere. It’s strange to know that the people in the club wanna head down to party but not knowing how to mingle, dance, or at least sing the damn song, which I’m not surprised to how they can’t actually sing it properly. But then again, it was a club that played probably underground music that I haven’t heard of. But the sad part is that I went one day earlier, because the next day was Benni Benassi and David Guetta. DOWN ON MY LUCK so to speak. Sigh.
Anyways, entrance fee is NT$600. But you can pay at like NT$5000 to get a table with drinks, if I’m not wrong. 1 or 2 bottles, I can’t remember, but definitely more worth it. The NT$600 is like SGD$25, cheaper than Butter factory.
Day 2 – Ximending. And only Ximending.
If you want me to elaborate on shopping at Ximending, then I will give you some tips on shopping smart in Taiwan.
Tip 1 – Check for shops that have Tax Refund.
Usually renowned departmental stores like Roots, Sogo etc do offer Tax Refund after spending more than NT$3000 in that departmental store itself. But as for smaller single shops like Adidas Originals, XLarge etc, they might not offer the Tax Refund, and the sales staff have no freaking clue that it CANNOT BE CLAIMED SIMPLY AT THE AIRPORT ALONE. Firstly, to identify if the company is registered as a tax refund merchant, please ask the staff. Secondly to confirm your doubts, check on the back on the receipt if there’s a blue chop with some chinese words in a rectangular box. That rectangular box is an indication that it is a company that is registered. So if you can, shop wisely to save some money back to buy Sun Biscuits at the airport.
Tip 2 – Don’t always Jiak, Pong, Gao (JPG)
Let me elaborate on the terms of JPG. Jiak = Eat, Pong = Coupled, Gao = Win. In the mahjong world, JPG is typically of those people that aren’t afraid to die in the game, but end up with a stroke of luck that could either steer them away from a big payout to their opponent or winning that round with big loads of shit ass money. In the shopping world, Jiak means you practically saw something you like. Pong means you decided to try it in the fitting room, or at least try the product out. Gao means you bought it without even thinking. In a nutshell, JPG is simply known as Impulsive Shopping.
Apparently in Taiwan, you can find many of the same things all over and over again, not usually pertaining to Ximending, but especially areas like Wufenpu and the other night markets, notably Shilin and Shida. So don’t just spend your money in a blind shade. You will never know what you can find in the next shop. But it’s also quite hard sometimes as the areas there are extensively messy. All importantly, just make sure you know when you are getting it, Singapore’s equivalent product has to be more expensive so that you feel that its worth it to purchase.
Tip 3 – Bring your cash, and credit card, to the right places.
You see, if you are shopping at the departmental store, if you don’t have the cash, the card is always the best friend. But if you end up shopping at smaller stores at Shilin Night Market, then you are in for deep shit if you don’t have the cash. Apparently, these smaller shops – not all of them – might not have a credit card machine for you to swipe happily. So please bring sufficient cash.
Tip 4 – Keep small change.
Importantly, because when you are hungry, you become a demon searching for food. But food is everywhere in the streets, just that you need to be mindful that giving such a big note wouldn’t guarantee you stomach satisfaction, because the auntie or uncle selling that sausage to you might not even have change to break it apart. And it’s good to get rid of coins at such places without touching your bigger notes like the NT$2000 note, which many Taiwanese haven’t really seen them till now, and they get all amazed by it.
Anyways, Ximending is one hell of an “Orchard Road”. Cool weather, very hip people, with Halloween in the fray, the mood is there. Young teenagers singing in the middle of the parade square a medley of Taiwanese Pop star hits that brought in an immense number of curious bystanders. Fun-goers displaying their costumes in all shapes and sizes. Friendly people with all due respect, were there to just bring up the mood in an already interesting place like this.
I bought a trenchcoat that is made in korea from this shop that has a wonderfully beautiful saleswoman. And yes, she was nice enough to entertain me. And boy she’s one hot lady as well. Don’t anyhow think, but she’s really very sexy indeed. But I love my trenchcoat more. LOL. I got myself an Adidas Fall/Winter 2010 collection Campus shoe that wasn’t out in Singapore yet. I was over the moon when I bought it, but when I went back to the place, they were actually selling it like NT$300 cheaper. I was cursing a bit, which explains Tip 2 in the shopping tips above.
Anyways, the food along the streets itself are already great. But wait till I enter Miaokou at Keelung, then I will know what is the real deal. The food and bubble tea there is really really very cheap, way cheaper than your food courts that you dine in Singapore.
After all that crazy shopping, we went to the BIGGEST Partyworld KTV I have ever seen. In Singapore, it’s like a large area inside a shopping centre. In Taiwan, Partyworld occupies ONE BUILDING. I think it reaches to 20 storey high. Imagine that amount of KTV rooms you have. You will never grow sick of singing because in one particular room for example, it has an LCD TV, a toilet for you, 2 microphones, and the best thing of all, their touch screen song selection monitor! Pathetically in Singapore, we are still pressing our remotes.
It was all good, even the food in Partyworld ain’t as bad as the one we had in Singapore. But it was great nonetheless! And yes, we took a cab home, because Ximending is actually only one MRT station away from our accommodation area. Not too bad though!
Some pictures of the day. =)
Day 3 – Wufenpu, Taipei City Hall, Rao He Night Market
At this day, we did a lot of shopping, and sight seeing for sure. But Wufenpu, rumoured to be like a mad shopping area for all, surfaced in many of our conversations. Apparently, it’s like Singapore’s Bugis Street – Just way bigger.
Shopping was crazy, but please note that if you have to go to Wufenpu, please take the MRT and alight at Houshanpi. It’s along the blue line heading towards the east. Once you alight, check out the map and you can make your way there. But do not forget to dine in at a eatery with a yellow signboard. They are famous for their braised pork rice, which is FANTASTIC by the way. I would recommend the Bittergourd Soup that the same eatery is selling. It’s not even bitter at all, and it was the right call because the other Ginseng chicken soup is bitterly nice. LOL
If you are going with friends, just split up and meet at the same point again because, like Bugis, it’s quite messy and all around is male and female stuff. Shopping there is amazingly cheaper than you think, just do not expect big brands to appear, but more of street fashion to be available at a cheap price. Bargaining is possible, so if you can, buy more and get cheaper prices!
After all that crazy shopping, we headed to Taipei City Hall, agreeing that we will chase the sunset. So we end up taking photos and walking a distance of at least 5 Ngee Ann City Civic Plazas before arriving at a carpark opposite Taipei 101, once the tallest building in the world. It’s a sight to behold at night as well, though I was told that it was better to capture the day scenes. Then again, nightview was breathtakingly beautiful! Definitely higher than the Tokyo Tower for sure.
There’s shopping inside the Taipei 101 as well, but we aren’t exactly tourisy tourist, so we won’t go for those stuff there, because all of it are branded goods. But if you ever really wanna shop there, just don’t forget that they don’t accept Singapore Dollars at the foreign exchange counter. Apart from that, I wouldn’t recommend shopping there because the prices are more expensive than you can afford in Singapore.
After that breathtaking experience, we went back nearer to Houshanpi, where we were eager to try the famous mutton soup at Rao He Night Market, a night market full of FOOD. As for normal shopping like at every other night market, this is comparatively more incline to food than the other night markets. Sadly, the mutton soup was sold out once we arrived after such a long and deep walk into the night market. But of course, we didn’t give up. We end up buying many other food to try. Some of them are insanely overportioned till we somehow laughed it off and yet couldn’t finish. LOL
Day 4 – Hualien – The Gorges and The Gorging of Food.
And yes, we travelled down to the peaceful and serene east of Taiwan, where Hualien resides with all their mountainous gorges and valleys. So how do we get there? Actually the train tickets were bought earlier, but we needed to collect them the day before. Then again, please don’t go and buy the subway train tickets. It’s the other express train, but not the bullet train.
Anyways, we arrived after a 2 hour 45 minute train ride. The tour guide couldn’t make it on time, and hired a taxi driver instead, but we were really glad that it was him because he was really humble and nice to assist us in the whole tour, and it was really nice of him to dedicate his time even if he’s just a taxi driver.
Firstly, he brought us to this small eatery where he made us take-away set meals which he claimed that it’s one of their famous stalls, which I would recommend because it’s cheap and taste really good. So we reached the foot of Taroko National Park and we took many photos before reaching the museum area to have our packet lunch and a self-tour around that area to get to know the park better.
And we set off next to all the breathtaking and beautiful scenic gorges with bridges to walk, photos to take, and hills to climb. Such an experience away from urbanisation was greatly appreciated and I totally enjoyed myself hiking throughout with no hesitation and worries about the weather and work. Such a wonderful place to camp as well, as they have campsites provided with toilets and concrete areas!
After all that tiresome but fun times spent on the mountains, we head back to the city area, where food awaits us! We were told that this delicacy known as the “cong you bing” is so nice that it’s renown in the whole Taiwan! How good is that? Because it’s like prata, just that after it’s being fried, we had a sunny-side up egg placed between, folded with chilli flakes, and then there you go! One bite and the egg yolk comes flowing out. You know that kind of feeling? It’s STUPENDOUSLY YUMMILICIOUS! I couldn’t stand how nice this thing was that we all end up buying another after eating one of it!
But of course, the eating doesn’t stop here. We headed to their famously known wanton stall that was also popular, but when we were there, it’s quite empty, but at such a cheap price, we get like 10 wantons in a bowl for less than SGD$3? Totally worth it! After that nice wanton place, we head off to their well known stall that sells Xiao Long Bao, but apparently we were in for a shock. Why? Because we were expecting like DTF size of XLBs, so we thought we could just take 3 pieces per pax. But we were WRONG. Because the moment the woman opened the basket of dumplings, the XLBs are like…. Bs. BAOS I MEAN. The size of the XLB is like normal Baos. And it’s so nice, that like eating XLBs, there’s that sauce inside. WAH LAU, where got such thing one?! But it was out of this world. But we were really full to the brim.
Before heading back, I end up spending almost $40 on muahchees itself. LOL
Day 5 – Beitou, Danshui, Shilin Night Market
Amazingly, we decided to make our way to the hotspring city, Beitou. It was relatively far out, but we were in for that try out. While we kinda lost our way, we end up finding the place, and then we decided to go in even though it was only half an hour left, but it was too good not to try, and I was right because it is really too good not to try. It was sooooo warm, that every part of my skin feels tight and at the same time, small wounds started to heal.
The water is really from the hotspring because you can smell the strong smell of metal, or probably copper. And the hotspring itself varies from different temperatures at different pools. The best part? You pay only SGD$2. And you can soak for all you want. There’s bathing facilities, but note that the water you are bathing with is FREAKING COLD. Kinda like an after effect thing. But it’s so shiok, that I don’t feel cold when I got out of the hotspring pool.
After that half an hour of shiokness, we made our way on the train to Danshui, where it was famously known for their “Iron Eggs”. Iron eggs, basically, are like smaller and harder century eggs, in my opinion. But overall, I think if we can put those eggs into porridge, I’m sure it will taste as good. Heh.
But at Danshui, there’s so much food to offer along their “food street” as well. Like their famous sng muay, baked potato with cheese toppings etc. But most importantly, when you are at Danshui, you HAVE to try their seafood. There’s a seafood restaurant that is their most patronised for their popularity and it didn’t disappoint me at all because practically every dish taste damn good. The freshness, the abundance, and best of all, for a cheap price of SGD$80 plus for the whole table! And we have flower crabs, oysters, prawns, fish skin, vegetables, fried noodles, clam soup, fruit juices. How cheap can that go?!
Walking around the shops at Danshui makes my mind go back in time because of the things they sell. Reminiscing times in the shop wasn’t the way to go, but I had to because it’s too hard to resist things like spin tops, push pops, cola candies, flavoured ice sticks, glass bottles with marbles inside etc. I couldn’t list all, because there’s simply too many! How I wish I had a picture of the shop!
After all that walking, we decided to take a train to Shilin Night Market to have a “preview” of what it is like and yes, like every other market, it’s as hustling and bustling as the rest that we went, just that at Shilin Night Market, there’s such a big shop that sells mainly branded shoes ranging from Nike to Adidas to New Balance to Vans to Timberland to Puma to Keds to K Swiss to Asics etc. So many shoes. So many designs. So many colours. I wonder why I didn’t buy anything. But there’s a pair of Vans shoes that I almost bought just that the size is right but the comfort isn’t.
But Shilin’s shopping area is seperated from the eating area like a few metres away, although there are also street stalls that gather at their usual locations, providing ever tasty food and beverages for shoppers like us along the way. Ultimately, it’s such a wonderful shopping area that when I was walking on my way there, I saw Kim Swee! SUPER SMALL WORLD CAN. I didn’t expect to see a friend at like overseas and moreover, friends that I probably know at least for 4 years! Quite estatic actually. LOL.
Day 6 – Keelung, Shida Night Market
This is probably the place that you MUST visit. Firstly, Keelung, though at the northern part of taiwan, is raining excessively almost every time and day of the year, is like a wet city harbour with lots of stuff to offer. Especially food. They have a street, also known as the Temple’s Entrance (in direct translation) that hosts numerous stalls of splendidly sumptuous food that you can go eating the whole day non-stop. What’s more, it’s touted as the best food street in Taiwan. And I second that.
Apart from that, I manage to get my bubble tea as usual, and then I head for a haircut that was quite worth paying. Though at $13, the whole deal comes with a shoulder massage, a neck massage, hair wash, cut, wash, dry, style. Totally worth it. Love the hairdresser there, she’s cute. And she’s quite shocked that someone like me can speak chinese (okay after all I’m chinese, just not from China.)
I will probably let the pictures do the talking. It’s basically like Japan, looks really really gloomy because of the weather there. But the food made up for all the gloominess. =D
While at Miao Kou (Temple’s Entrance), we are trying to stuff ourselves with whatever we can. So we first tried the oysters, which is a MUST in fact. Secondly, you gotta try their Glutinous rice, Pig Liver’s Soup, Curry Noodles, Fishcakes, Meatballs in some Gooey paste, Pig Blood soup, Yam cakes etc. Simply, there’s too much food there for you to try. You can NEVER GET ENOUGH of it. Literally.
After the whole lovely ordeal there (I bought a gundam as well. Haha.), we decided that Shida was the way to go again, to finish up buying some stuff for people and ourselves, which is equivalent to more shopping. Hah.
Day 7 – Ximending, Shilin Night Market. AGAIN.
Ok, this was technically our last chance to do our last minute shopping, so we decided to patronise these 2 areas of Taiwan. Ximending being that we wanted to do some nice branded shopping, which we did. And to my amazement, I discovered a street full of camera equipments and shops. CHEAP. But without international warranty for Canon. Only Nikon has it. SAD.
Moving on, Shilin Night Market was the destination for steamboat sessions, which we had the intentions to go when we first arrived in Taiwan. And we manage to find one outlet after know asking the friendly people around. And boy, we were filled with satisfaction! At only close to $15, we had like steamboat plus a frying wok just beside it as well as frying ICE CREAM, for the first time. The food they serve were definitely more fresh and better than Singapore. Imagine them serving COD FISH instead of the normal fish we used to take in Singapore. It was totally an experience. And yes, we ate so much, we didn’t feel that full either. Heh.
Here’s a few photos for remembrance.
While at Shilin Night Market, we went to try this thing called Fried Milk. Yes, we are wondering in the first place how the shit do you fry…. milk?! But then again, it was all the essence of food over there as it made me swoon over the taste that till now I cannot forget. It’s such a wonderful masterpiece that I wonder how that woman actually did it. Totally out of this world. But I knew it will be the last time that I had that, or at least the last time for the trip that is.
Sadly, my trip came to an end and I’m back in humid Singapore. But nonetheless, I had one of the most enjoyable trip around and I couldn’t have asked for better company to be there. Spending wise, I think I hit the $2000 mark, but it’s just nice for me, because I saved A LOT on accommodation. It was a much needed trip, and I totally enjoyed my time there!
We all love how this trip is. I will be back there again before you know it. I just love Taiwan!
Nope.
13 Dec 2010 2 Comments
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because….
so….
i know…..
which is why….
almost but nothing like…
Oh well.
Thoughts and Dreams
26 Oct 2010 Leave a Comment
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At work, I sit in my crazily noisy office, and that the clerks are hectic and busy walking around doing work while the other storemen just came into the office to create even more disturbance, and then my thoughts went away from that current atmosphere. And things started to flow back like it use to be.
But wait, didn’t I tell myself to be ok and kept myself busy with a lot of things till I’m like tired? If you gotta ask me, now I realise how boring a person I am. I got no traits, I ain’t that good in my presentation of myself, and there’s nothing to look forward to me. What’s next? I just asked myself a couple of times and it got into me that I shouldn’t be wasting my time, and then it happened throughout the past weekend, a weekend so well packed. I didn’t had the time to think about what’s tomorrow. And that the Sky Park has such a panoramic view that is breathtaking, I looked far, and told myself that I had to build that building over there.
It’s probably a dream to rich that stage of abundant cash flow. We suffer now so that our generations don’t, and I never knew that everything was falling through only for me to feel that wrath of the pocket, and that if I have to achieve my dream, I need to control my spending. I need to probably set a few more strict goals. And that I need someone so thrifty to help me save up. Girlfriend? Possible, provided if there’s one out there to help me control. I want to be brought back down to earth again. Because I wanna know how mud taste like all over again. That’s when I will learn that shit happens and shit taste like that.
Push me from the highest cliff down to the sea below, so that I can drown into the immensely cold deep blue and sink into near death physique, only to gasp for air after those struggle, then I will start to cherish life.
I did realise one thing too, that I’m quite cold-blooded. I don’t feel much for many sad shows anymore, and that probably because I have seen so many fake people and fake things, I wonder what’s real already. I just… want to know what’s love all over again. Sadly, even if I fell for someone so close and dear, I can’t take back my words, and that I can’t bring myself to love because it will be a drastic result. Confidence smashed. I looked forward everytime, but only for me to back down slowly.
I’m still fading, but I only need you to point that knife at my throat, and demand the answer, then I will give it to you, and pull me back from insanity to reality, then I will truly know that there’s still someone out there worth to love.
But I think you won’t know, because you don’t think as much as I do.
Oh well, no more dwelling, time to move on again. ~
The Beauty of It
08 Oct 2010 Leave a Comment
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Yes, thanks to Fukie, I got a free invite at the Grand Opening of the first Leica Concept Store at Raffles Hotel yesterday. And time and time again I was mesmerized by the beauty and the control of the camera. The feeling’s like driving a manual car. You want the power, you want the control. And in the Leica, you got that kind of control you want. Aside from all the digital SLRs that we have these days, the Leica is so much so a manual camera that you gotta pit your skills and your adjustments in quick fashion and take a snap of something that you like.
Advantages aside, this camera is not meant for you to do any events. But what makes it special is that it’s special for special occasions. As in, you take people, and scenery, things that don’t usually move in anyway. And it is so good because the photo turns out crisp clear.
I used to hear my dad telling me all about Leica, and how great, reliable and durable it was as a camera brand. And when he saw Panasonic Lumix using their lens, he couldn’t help but heap praises on the Lumix. All thanks to the Leica lens. But now, as I have seen it for myself as one of the first patrons at the first Leica Concept Store in Southeast Asia, I get to witness the range of cameras and accessories, even getting some history lesson from the main Lecia CEO himself. All that talk, and it was enough to keep me determined.
Determined to get one that is.
The store was fantastic, in fact, I feel good in the shop. But I gotta say, to own one of these will take a long while to achieve this target, though the cheapest range of camera they have is like $1328. That’s what I’m targetting. The most expensive is like what, $30,000? I can buy like at least four Canon 5D MkII with 24-105mm lens EACH. Or maybe a new car.
Realistically and rationally, I wouldn’t spend that kinda money unless I’m like $1 million richer, but it’s already a feast to the eyes and I don’t see why I ain’t full. The touch of that titanium and leather is also too good to be true. What smooth quality.
Now I see the beauty in an old-fashion outlook in Leica. Hold on baby, I will get you someday.
A Series of Septembers
08 Sep 2010 2 Comments
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This is the month of September, cliche to say.
But as it seems to go so slow, let me take it all the way.
As I have some song videos right here, that probably you might have seen.
Let it all begin, and reminisce what you thought could have been.
Daughtry – September
A video for you to reminisce. Find the lyrics and listen to them.
Plain White T’s – A Lonely September
A video specially for you. You won’t see it anyways.
Earth, Wind, Fire – September
A video to boogie down some time at night at Zouk. =)
Greenday – Wake Me Up When September Ends
A video to remember.
Now… let me get out of here.
Repeating.
07 Sep 2010 Leave a Comment
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So after not blogging for awhile, must be wondering what’s on my mind. On my end, the politically correct answer is that I’m busy with work and all. In fact, just working till my mind goes shut.
But on the contrary, I have been losing myself from the society to find all the reasons that happened in the past and what I have become today. I’m not the Marcus I used to be, that’s for sure. So I just wanna look back and tell myself – if time had the rewind button, what can I do to change what damages that had been dealt with.
There were many things that I asked myself, on to why I had to react that way, and why people had to react that way, and that there are many things that I want to say to people but I couldn’t bring myself to do so, and that some times at some point, I would want to take back all the words I have said on particular days of emotions, particular days of temptations and stuff like that. Sometimes I really wished that I have not done this, and sometimes I wished that I have not said that and whatsoever. The list goes on and on.
I also felt that I was selfish, and that I have not seen others in their own shoes and perspective, and have not put into consideration of how they feel, and that if you ask me how I feel when someone does something good for me, emotionally, I think that I have lost my heart and it’s empty inside me. I can’t feel any laughter nor joy. I can’t even feel pain or sorrow.
At this juncture, I don’t want to disclose any secrets that I have, long gone, or recent, I won’t say a word. Because I know whenever everything comes out of my mouth, I’m sure my life, and many others around me, will come crashing down into bits and pieces, and that even the best person in engineering couldn’t construct another perfection of art in someone. And yet it’s ultra hard to keep all this bits and pieces that I wished so much to forget. But reminisces after deja vu after memories, things just keep floating around your head and not sinking into the deep dark ocean.
How do I go about doing this? Eat more soy products? I don’t want to erase my life away, but neither do I want to keep these secrets, because I really wish to forget. The worse part? I can’t confide to anyone. As mentioned above, once I do that, everything comes crashing down. How I wish I was dead seriously. Reality bites, and it’s painful. Even till now, at work, it’s something that I can use to forget all my troubles, but when I get home, everything’s back to square one. I’m seriously damn messed up now.
I need to restructure my life.
I need to change my habits.
I need to stay focused on what I want to do.
I need to stay away from all the negativity.
I need to change my delusional jobscope.
I need to take my photos.
I need to get away from here.
I need to shout out loud.
I need to stop thinking about hope.
I need to hug someone badly.
Last but not least…..
I need to cry.
Sadly…
There’s no shoulder anymore.
Good night.
27 Aug 2010 2 Comments
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I think I’m better off by myself.
Reality is giving too many signs and signals.
And it’s beyond my control.
What’s meant to be yours, will be yours.
What’s meant to go wrong, will go wrong.
Sadly, it’s all wrong for me.
Fly away marcus, fly away.
Fly away to a place that no one can find you.
Fly away when no one knows that you are gone.
Fly away to a place that your phone seems unreachable.
Fly away… just fly away..
Good night people, good bye people.
Falling For You
22 Aug 2010 Leave a Comment
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Somehow I feel that everything that it’s above is kinda like the opposite. I don’t know that’s why I don’t judge and I don’t want to trust, knowing that if I do, I will end up in the same state all over and over again. Smarter right now to believe that things aren’t that easy. But of course, as the saying goes, if you believe it is a problem, it will always and forever be a problem.
Pessimism aside, love has always been a form of entity that words couldn’t construct on the surface of things. Love is kinda like a subconscious feeling, and it’s that kind of feeling that you feel good of that person, that the feeling can become better if given more opportunity, more chance, more time for engaging.
As this kind of thing progresses, time tells many tales of excitement and grief. Disappointment or entertainment, it’s subjective considering the type of person and personality involved. If one doesn’t give another the chance, and that hints are all over to see, I guess sometimes it’s time to give up and move on. It happened to me always. And it will forever be happening to me. It’s kinda bad, but you know, life screws you up some times and it’s obvious to see why. In accordance to Murphy’s Law, whatever will go wrong, will go wrong.
Apparently, my whole life is filled up by the fact that Murphy lives in me. And whatever I touch, whoever I speak to, whatever action I take, whoever I hear from, will all be erroneous. Not because I don’t believe in my confidence, and it’s not because of my self-esteem that I deemed a failure once, but it’s because ultimately, whenever I had a chance, it wasn’t presented to me well. And when it’s presented to me well, I’m avoided. I’m not a failure just because I tried, but at least I tried to make the effort. But it ain’t dreamland always. It ain’t always a day that the sun will be up there forever to paint picture of fluffy clouds added colour to the sky.
Please.
When everyone deserves a chance or two, we have people in the world that don’t offer anything at all. I guess I have seen too many of all this. And that when the time that you thought you can trust someone all over again, she walks away. I’m not stupid, as I mentioned time and time again. I might be dumb, but I’m not born blinded by anything. So don’t come telling me that I have not made the effort. Because I know it doesn’t happen to me anytime now, anytime sooner, or anytime later. Because I lost faith in all these “happenings”. I don’t want to judge because I don’t see things that others can. And that others shouldn’t judge me because they can’t see things on my end that I can see. But I stopped believing already. It’s time to live the life of innocence.
I believe. That it won’t happen on my end. Ever. Again.
I can wake up from my dream now.
As Usual.
18 Aug 2010 2 Comments
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Day by day after work everyday, my lifespan grows shorter because of the intensity at work. I haven’t seen my good friends in more than a week already. I have been rotting everyday after work at home. But of course, doing something meaningful like a collage of photos from last time. Then again, I lack the rest that I need so much. Maybe I need to take a day off or leave to just sleep all the way. Now in this moment of haste and increased pressure, I try so hard to find time to chill, but to no avail.
The only love I receive now is my mum’s cooking, my bed, the shower and trickles water everytime I need to get clean every night before I go to bed, and probably my computer and iPhone to keep me out of my insane mind at work. Everything’s so fast. Everything’s so massively disturbing to the heart. Everything in reality seems so unavoidable that distractions settles in. This ain’t good at all. I kinda admit that the habit of getting people to accompany me in this and that is sometimes good but sometimes bad as well.
Good being… Yea, you have someone to accompany you either for companionship or opinionated outings. Bad being… Either you are too dependant, scared, don’t like to do things alone etc. But that’s what I’m somehow, I can’t seem to not find someone to go out with. Be it a cup of coffee, to get something downstairs etc. Then again, where was the independant me last time when no one liked who am I and no one fancied someone that looked as bad as myself? I always had the opportunity to tell other people that they look better and never been much better than before because I beg to differ on my very self. Though I still do, but… I don’t know. People these days are either too thick in the skin or snobbish.
But I always feel somehow that someone is reading all this. Be it my bestest friends, be it someone unknown, I don’t know. But somehow everything’s so quiet in my life. Silence begets more silence. Loneliness knows me by name. And I guess that’s just the way it is. Taking life day by day is probably the only way to get past time in the most effortly effective manner. =|
Now where’s that baking oven?
Reality
07 Aug 2010 Leave a Comment
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Actually all it takes is one normal day to realise the thousand truths about humans. And I foresee many weekends like these to come. But it ain’t surprising, given the fact that I go to work and go home without much plans. But then again, it kinda tells many things, and eventually it becomes imminent that it will happen, you know, like a open secret. It ain’t rocket science. Even a primary school kid can tell that there’s something wrong.
Nicely put, it’s in the name of a knowing someone then you do the favour to them. But sorry, it’s not always the case. Sadly, I see everything after everything is over, and just when I know it’s like that, it’s too late. I guess I’m sometimes just too blind and naive to believe. And when I snap, one by one they disappear. Sometimes criticism is just hard to take, but that shows that one is freaking weak. No offence, but I see the change coming, and I know one day it will become so routine that it is forgotten. Then it will be lost. And never to be found again.
Don’t try to decipher what I say because every sentence that I craft out is politically correct but morally wrong. You can never tell what I’m try to say here. It’s too sophisticated to read my brain. Your brain will tire itself out before even trying to figure what I’m thinking. If you need a summary out of everything, then I will say that it’s the fact about life. And yes, somehow that answer is also coded by me, and you can never understand what I’m trying to say. Too bad then.
If you can, then…..
Carrots and Fishfood
02 Aug 2010 Leave a Comment
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Today while dumbing the remains of my meal into the dustbin, I came across a carrot head cut and thrown away, missing the bin somehow when it’s like only 30cm away from the sink (-_-”) and then I had to pick it up to throw. I bet it must be my mum. But then again, that’s not the point as when I picked the carrot head up, it brought me back to times when Aishita (our family pet rabbit) is still living and lazing around at it’s cage.
It loved carrots and french beans. And my mother will make it a point that whenever she is cooking carrots or french beans for the day, she will leave the head and probably some remaining french beans for that bunny to eat. And it was a joy because it knew whenever we will going near with a bowl of vegetables, she will jump up with excitement and then start demanding for it. Greedy, but that cute furball never fails to make us smile.
But well, it’s gone.
My dad used to keep fishes and still rearing some. Back then, I realised that he had like 7 to 8 blood parrot fishes. Then since, unfortunately the tanks that he came across to utilise were leaking and had no choice but to change them. But every time he changed one tank, one or two fishes will die. Up till today, only 2 survived, but looking pale and kinda bad in condition. But my dad still decides to keep them, apparently in a container. Sadly my dad’s been busy at work and stuff like that but there’s one good point about him and that he – no matter what living thing is that – will still make the effort even at his loss or sacrifice to keep it alive.
And I admire that character because it is pure sincerity. And it’s also the reason why I’m still walking on this earth healthy and fine. Without that amount of sacrifice, I won’t be here today. Then again, I would say that I pray for the fish to survive till my dad gets a better tank. Or at least find the time to release it to waters where it will be dangerous but much more freedom for it to enjoy.
Emotional pets aside, seems that tomorrow will be battlefront day as all of them were clearing off today. Tomorrow is meeting day and I’m sure gonna get buttered left right centre. Maybe additional kaya still. Then again, at this crucial point of time, they take away my monitor at my office for repairs when the annual audit check is coming in September. Fuck my life no?
This is bad counterproductive work behaviour. And I don’t like it.
Anyways, some photos that were taken from the past few months of late. Most can be found on Facebook. =)
Big Walk 2010 with family and Geokie and Zai! =)

Food Spree with Colin and Annice! There was more food. Just lesser pictures. Haha! =)
Marina Bay Sands and World Cup Finals! Epic Tiredness. Haha. =)
One day I decided to cook maggi mee when I was dead hungry.
Singapore International Jewellery Show 2010 at Marina Bay Sands with Xueli! Only Models Sadly. Haha. =)

Thanks for looking babe. Haha.
I heard that during the Singapore International Jewellery Show, 2 China nationals went there to rob and steal a pair of diamond earrings I think. And it’s of $10000 in value. One went to distract the salesperson after he took out the diamonds and the other just grabbed and go. And the security guard just felt that they were suspicious and gave chase. Haha. You think Singapore security guard dumb one ah. I think sometimes some security guards are respectable for their attitude at work. *Salutes*
Will blog more soon!
Not Bad.
31 Jul 2010 Leave a Comment
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Apparently I’m starting to make use of my time – bit by bit – to do the things I wanna do and also accomplishing tasks pertaining towards what I want to achieve till the end of the year. The forthcoming things that are happening are things that probably make me think and feel that actually sometimes you can get help anywhere, everywhere, but eventually it boils down to one’s discipline and determination to push for the success and target that we have always wanted to achieve.
My friend shared with me once about the difference between talking, dreaming and doing. We all have dreams, I don’t deny. And that we all have always wanted to do this or that or achieve something that you probably feel it’s realistic to reach. So our minds wonder, our minds ponder. And then we tell everyone, seemingly excited about the plans you create, the plans you have drawn to perfection. But when it comes to the day that you have plan for, you are glued to your fucking sofa rotting away with broken chips all over your face and cans of coke lying everywhere.
Is that what you want? Is that your so called “dream”?
Then again, that made me feel that time is everything and as you know, time doesn’t wait for no man. Ok to be fair, woman as well. And to make it all seem so nice and flowery isn’t gonna help when you paint a picture without your brush no?
Probably that is why people are slowly fading away. You know, slowly moving on with their lives. Studies, work, aspirations, projects, outings, camps etc. And that probably show that everyone else that I know have a purpose and have a reason to do what they wanna do. And I feel happy for them. Sadly I feel sad for myself because that’s when everyone’s busy when I’m free. But I gotta understand that the norm of a human is probably 98% selfish eventually. And just when I always thought that selfishness isn’t a good thing, I told myself to begin loving “selflessness”.
Now that I have somewhat attained selflessness in the right areas of my life and selfishness in the other areas apart from the first, maybe it wasn’t such a good idea after all. And so as it seems, fate and whoever’s using that Xbox controller to control my life is kinda rewinding me back to the time what I was the complete opposite of who I’m now. And probably it is a vicious cycle. Never liked it, but I can’t do anything about it. It’s like the events that happen day by day are leading to the times when it’s kinda like making me find my old-self again and telling me that THAT is the right way to go, not now.
I can agree to a certain extent. And yes, I might probably revert back to who I m. And eventually I will lose more than anything that I can lose throughout this 25 years of my life. But in order for that to happen, it still boils down to my discipline. So let’s do a checklist now on my personal outcomes that I did or at least try to do so far.
1) Move on? Checked.
2) Get a job? Checked.
3) Change my character? Trying to.
4) Introverting? Trying to.
5) Selfishness? Trying to.
6) Positive Attitude? Trying to.
7) Healthy Lifestyle? Not really. (As you can see from my life now)
8) Accept reality as it is? On the verge of saying yes.
9) Focus-oriented? No.
You see, the last point is ultimately the distraction-free attitude that I basically want to achieve. And I realised that it has served me well when I was way younger into my teenage years. And probably succeeded along the way. That’s how I improved from a no-brainer to a basketballer. That’s how I improved from a Football Manager idiot to a striker that curls the ball around and past the opponent’s goalkeeper. That’s how I didn’t become the Platoon Best in BMT but ended up being the only person in my platoon to be enrolled in OCS.
I remember I was labeled a teacher’s pet when I was in secondary school. Come on guys. You think I don’t know an open secret? Probably you dickheads don’t have the balls to admit to me that’s all. I was just being friendly and helpful. Not like you idiots only trying to smoke in toilets. But because of you pricks that I manage to grow stronger in person because there’s people like you all that make me want to beat the crap out of your guts.
And that’s how I was last time. And I’m a nobody now. And I hate it.
It doesn’t matter anymore, because I can’t be distracted by all that bullshit anymore.
Time to be awesome. =)
If you make the effort to reach out your hand, the horizon will never be too far from you.
The Blue Cup
10 Jul 2010 Leave a Comment
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After bathing today, I stood still in the shower, faced the wall with an expressionless face. With all the water rolling down every part of me, I can feel every drop parting away with gravity, like how every amoeba seperates itself from each other.
And as I feel water droplets slowly parting from my eyelashes, I dare not blink an eye, for it will hurt and irritate my eye.
Well, that is exactly how I see that it will end up. I’m afraid. Yes, afraid, that the droplet is you and the eye is me. The droplet of water, so pure and serene, if disturbed with constant pace and movement to it, will disperse it’s every water molecule, hurting the eye with every touch of it. And the eye, feeling that water is in it, will activate the human braincells and tell it that hey, I’m hurt, and it’s painful.
Paranoid. That’s what I’m feeling. If I don’t blink, my vision will see you fall away from me. If I blink, you will be irritated and somehow lose it at me.
And probably after typing this post, knowing that you might have been gone, I dare not close my eyes, because I’m afraid I couldn’t stand the sight of you leaving, ignoring me behind in the dark when I end the day with my eyes closed.
You might probably be imperfect, but I see and think otherwise. I might not be the best person walking in this world, but I might be the best person walking into your world.
The blue cup is still at home, hoping that by giving it to you, it will be filled with happiness of your perception. I guess I don’t need to already. Because when I brought it home, it was empty.
Through it all, it endured a 5 day 4 night stay in my car, hoping that it will end up in your good hands. I guess it wasn’t meant to be. And I guess it ain’t gonna happen. Now as it lays nicely in a cupboard at home, I didn’t want to close the cupboard door, because I didn’t want to leave you in the dark. But as the door inch ever closer to the end of the hinge, I have that feeling of emptiness all over again. Just like how I brought the cup home, empty without knowing how this message can be delivered.
And now as I lay on my bed, I peeked out of the windows and i see a sky with stars like neutrons in heaven, I told myself that you might be better off without me. You broke my confidence once, but I wasn’t gonna let it affect me. Because I know the stars will stand by me.
And just at the time of emotions, they appear, right before my very eyes, in the sky, forever shining, forever blinking, because they always tell me this story.
“Every blink comes with a price. Pain or pleasure, it still irritates you in the quietest of ways. But if you can take a blink, you can take a butterfly effect like an earthquake pregnant with a thousand aftershocks. That’s imperfection. That’s love.”
I hate to see you ignore me, but I guess I have blinked too much. Time to close my eyes. For the record, it hurts.
But tomorrow will be ok. Because I know that opening my eyes tomorrow is the only way. Hopefully it is bright and sunny then.
In The Middle.
26 Jun 2010 Leave a Comment
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And everything’s still back to square one. Today is probably one of the days I spent much time alone. Like a good few hours to do up my own stuff, I feel like an independent person all over again. And I shall continue that way.
So what has everyone been up to these days? Somehow everyone’s not free whatsoever. It’s funny, but I seem to feel a tension between the 9 of us. Is there something that I should know and that you guys ain’t telling me? Then again, I hope nothing goes wrong between. It’s just a pity and of course, sad to see us giving cold shoulders to each other. But I hope everyone’s fine.
Suddenly I felt that I have figured many things out in life to make me a little smarter than usual, but it seems that in the context of my physical self, I guess I’m still failing. I think getting braces will be a good idea when I’m really ready to cash in on the expensive consultation costs. But what are the odds of me getting since I have a phobia at the dental clinic? Haha, nah, just kidding, I’m gonna do it for the sake of health. I guess it’s not as hard but not as easy as it is gonna be.
And oh ya, I think I’m back to my middle state self, where I possess no feelings of anything whatsoever. It’s a scary feeling, because you don’t know what is pain or what is real anymore. But well, I can still smile and cry. But maybe my subconsciousness has told me that is fake and I shall start lying to myself all over again. Is it healthy? I don’t know anymore anyways.
Never was really never after all.






































































































































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